tuesday?

hi sassy pants!

ahh,these past 2 days has been a rough time fer me.

have u ever felt,

when anxiety combines with too much frustration?

well,im in dat shit rite now.

and my paranoia is getting to my head as well. shit always happens when you in a low mood eh?

im feeling mope n it's just got worst by the day.

i dunno wat to do.

ah well,thats all fer now.

have a nice day.

lots of love,

fira.

sunday sunday!

hello there!

it's been a long time i didn't post blogs. well here i am again!

it's a new year a few days ago (for muslims anyway) n i've bin a really bad daughter,sister n a bad friend for last year n before.

so, this year im looking for a change. to be a better person,friend,sister n daughter.

so here's my shout to yu,

'I'm sorry for every time i hurt you in any way. i'm trying to change so lets start a new year with good hearts. i mean it.'

lots of love,
fira

sarawakians are all hot and sexyy!

happy sunday!

yeah,me n family went to Sarawak for 1 n a half exciting week!

ah,my title explains evriting already.

Sarawakians are waaaay hotter n sexier than 'org semenanjung'! haha!

and nope,there's no 'cawat, sumpit n blablabla'. even if there is,they are still prettier tho.

so stop being a stereotype n start travelling so u can see how big the outside world are!

now let the pic talks! =

at the Kucing International airport

we passed thru that door when we reached there. haha

this is DUN Sarawak(dewan undangan negeri)

inside DUN's Tower

peace!

delicious! (home made rum) haha





the Spring shopping mall.






Riverside Magestic shopping mall. we watched movie marathon here. so fuckin' awesome =p






i got myself a friggin' tatts on the last day! haha sucker!

alrite,thats all fer now.

have a nice day!

lots of love,

fira.

disgrace to my mind

Stereotypes! Die!

Stereotypes! Die!

Stereotypes! Die!

You,

Judge people easily,

Only at first sight!

You're fucking sick!

You are my neuralgic!

Go,

Hide your ass out,

Coz if i have it my chance,

I ripped apart your chest,

And show you,

Before you rest in peace,

Your fucking blacken heart.

artword by,

fira

unanswered

erm, lately, questions seems to come up in me mind. i wonder..

1. am I so bad?
2. am I selfish?
3. why must i did it?
4. can i get it?
5. will me parents get mad?
6. why things happen?
7. why cant i speak?
8. why must i have these with me?
9. why am I surrounded by people who wants something in return?
10. why cant i stand on my own 2 feet?
11. how can I be happy?
12. why does my mind get infected?
13. why am I forgotten?

ah well,the only thing I can figure out is =

I'm a sinner and I am certainly is fucked up!

lots of love,

fira

mind games

Mentally dead,

My eyes seems to stuck.

It won't fucking close,

As days been crossed in my calendar

I have definitely gone too far.

This rancour,

Is killing me for sure,

I fucking regret it,

I fucking regret it.

Artword by,

fira

idiotic lass

Congratulations!

Your face,

Your name,

On every shitty magazine,

I've found.

You're the cynosure now.

Well,

In your world,

You always will be.

Laughing to myself,

Your voice,

Circling in my mind.

Your words,

"You'll regret this,

When my face is known"

Your pathetic little phrases.

Well here we are,

Regrets,go coil inside me,

Regrets,of knowing you!

You,

Criticize people,

Being happy,

After seeing they crumbled down,

Down to the ground.

You are a pathetic little piece of shit!

There you are,

You have the lights on you,

And here I am,

Giving no fuck 'bout it.

I don't give a fuck!

For all I know,

I swear to God,

I hate you!

We,

In my mind,

Never fucking being friends.

Artword by,

fira

good saturday!

happy monday!

yeah,last saturday was awesome!

my family n me went to Danga bay,johor.

we started the journey at 9am,n reached there 'bout 7.30pm (haha,i noe, it takes a long time to
get there eh. actually,we stopped by at several places so dats why it takes quite a long time.)

at the Danga Bay,we walked around the stores,then we had our dinner.

about 9pm,we went to our car,sit there for a while.

at 10pm,me n me sis went to a cafe,chillin' out till 1am. we order a couple of drinks n corn in cup. yummy.

then,we headed to another cafe where our parents is having a cup of tea. woah,my tummy was full of drinks dat nite.

well,we sit around for a little while,then,we headed back to our home.

gah, that nite was fucking great.

alrite,thats all fer now. bye then. have a nice day!

ps=my english sucks! haha,lots of grammatical problems! sorry!

lots of love,
fira

plastic sweetheart.

3 years went by,

I've seen enough,

I've heard enough,

I've had enough.

My friend,

You act it so well,

I owe you a standing ovation,

I'll save it till our doomsday then.

You,

Reborn from your egocentric,

After you heard the news,

That hanging out with movie star lassie,

Is what i do.

Now,

Save your over-dramatic acting,

I won't buy it swetheart.

You're so fucking wrong,

By hanging out with me,

It wont help for sure.

You will never get to hang out with that movie star,

You're just that sucker for the famous faces.

Now,

Leave me alone dear,

But fire me with your fucking valediction first.

Come on,

It's you last show.

Haha,you're so fucking pathetic,

It made me sick.

Fucking suicide yourself,

Because your life seems empty,

But only for lies and fakeness.

Artword by,

fira.

tuesday tuesday!

happy evening!

it's been a long time i've been cut out from this technology world. hmm.

its dat rite? lol,my english is getting worst, eh.

anyway,nothing much happened this past few days.

it's quite pathetic actually. woo.

but at least i get enough sleep. =p

today is quite boring (though not da whole day)

i wake up n just sit around,got nothing to do.

then at 2pm, i watched rob n big!

god,those guys r fucking hilarious! lol!

n afterwards,i listened some favourite songs.

gahh,pretty much,dats wat i do everyday.

n my mood is totally out of control,it's undecided. hmm.

alrite,dats all fer now!

have a nice day!

lots of love,
fira

nice death is waiting for you.

Thank you!

Thank you my friend!

For stabbing a knife right on my back!

For all the lies,

For all the cynicism,

For all the faking smiles,

You deserved Hell for sure!

Yeah,you may be happy,

But does your feelings choke on you

When you're alone?

Well, i hope you had a happy day.

And when you're done,

Go,kneel down before my eyes,

And cry me,

A river of fucking blood,

For all i know,

I don't give a fuck.

Now do as you like,

For your life is meaningless,

The echoes of the corpses,

From the graveyard,

Is welcoming you already.

artword by,
fira

typical monday.

happy monday!

wah,its been a long time since i post anything.

so sorry,i promise to post my artword but i didnt due to my internet problems.

i will post it up later today though. =p

anyway,nothing much happen over the weekend.

just rolling around in my living room,wondering through space. lol.

alrite then,better be off, got nothing much to say.

have a nice day!

lots of love,
fira.

school.

happy thursday!

yeah, at last, i went to school just now. lol!

at school, me n my frends do nothing else but PLAY games!

first,we had to play 'tujuh tin' thingy.

i don't really noe how to play it,haha. i just go with da flow.

but we still win though. =p

we continue the day by playing cards (sakai game)

i almost get sakai yu noe,but thank god,i didn't. i only get sak! (pheww)

then,after having our recess,we went to our hall to listen an hour long lecture.

gosh,it really killed me. so darn bored.

erm,then my mom n me went to tesco to buy some groceries.

anyway,i am quite happy coz in a couple of hours time,me n my family will be heading to my

sister's apartment to pick her up. yeayy!

haha,funny actually,eventhough i just met my sister 2 days ago,i still miss her now.

well,dats all fer now. bye!

have a nice day!

lots of love,
fira

THUNDER!

happy evening!

wahh, the thunder is so scary just now. i am alone at me house when dat thunder thingy

happened so u can imagine how i feel. lol!

rite now i am quite upset b'coz of sumthing.

any ideas on how to cheer meself up? hmm.

anyways,i don't think i can post my artword now that i am not in a right state.

i am so sorry,i will post it when i'm okay though. =p

alrite,have to go, i may not happy now but i still am hoping yu guys have a nice day!

lots of love,
fira.

bouncing bounce!

happy afternoon!

just wanna say hi. hehe.

i skip school today n now i have nothing to do. hmm.

ohh,it's raining here,gahh,hope there's no lightning comin'.

alrite then, have to go. it seems thunder is going to come in 'bout any seconds now.

ohh,i will post some of my artwords later today, so look out fer it!

have a nice day!

lots of love,
fira.

fantasy in VAIN

It's 2:15,

Under the moonbeam,

Where pleasure comes out,

Thinking of the past,

Oh Lord, if only we could go back,

To the days when we were only kids,

Without nothing to worries,

Hoping for the carousel to keep spinning,

Play like there is no tomorrow,

With a blissful thoughts,

Where everyone we met is fucking nice.

Now,

The thoughts are fucking crumbled down to nothing,

People we met,

Is full of cyanide.

All i can do,

Is on my knees,

Praying to God,

To give me some strength to face it.

artword by,

fira

deadly bored.

happy afternoon!

gahh,today is super duper boring.

well,since my sister got her exams around the corner, so she had to study n here i am,doing

nothing.

erm,i think i'm gonna post some of my artwords later today, cant wait!

alrite,c yah!

have a nice daay!

lots of love,
fira.

Newly new!

happy evening!

hai. it's my first time blogging so excuse the lameness. haha.

just so yu noe though,this blog is pretty much about the life of fira and some of my artwords.

enjoy reading and please,please,please spread the words.

thanks! u are great!

have a nice day!